The change will giving some of the people suffering too... Suffering why the world updating that kind of speed? and people mind thinking changing that fast? "I haven't well-known with my computer and the new computer already become as thin as my finger?" But in our living, I guess most of us are suffering how to earn much more money and save for the up coming days... Because of the society now making so much people gone mad... Suicide, person disappear, stealing, killing, and much more happening...
Say as me, I'm a rich child from the day I born, I will get what I want if I wish... Because of this kind of bad habit, I was totally not used to it when I have nothing left except for the mental support from whom that I will really won't be forget in my young adult time... Stress for everyday, suffer for everything, crying for every night... In the end, I have accept the truth, fault, and my bad habit... From that time I did learn something important, we cannot cheat our love of heart...
I had it before... cheating my love, playing fool to it... After all, I get the lesson... The lesson makes me to do a promise not to other, is to do promise to myself...
I ask myself is there any other chance? Yes! There is another chance... I tell myself not to cheat, not to lie, even I have done wrong, just tell the truth... Now I got the second chance, no cheat no lie, promise to change my bad with term of time... Looking for a better work to give you a better thought...
If there is a second chance for you, what will you wish to change? Each person have different wish... For me, I got this second chance... All I will say is, no matter how hard to do, I will do my best for you... I wish you will understand what my heart wish to do...
想念，也每天活动着。。
爱，也每天增加着。。
人们说， 情侣的距离。。 是感情的距离。。
而我却不这么认为。。 只要是真心，相信。。
感情，永远都是那么近。。
虽然我会感到空虚，寂寞。。
但我还是会感到幸福。。
之前的我，是个自私的人。。 没想过她的想法。。
后来，她改变了我。。 一个除了 “完美” 两个字再也没有任何字眼可形容了。。
她是个很有耐性， 体贴， 关怀，诚实的人。。
她也拥有一个真心的人。。
我“答应”过她很多事情但有一半可说我没做到。。
她会生气我没做到我所答应她的事。。 但是她还会原谅我无数次。。。
我做不到 “答应”。。。 但我做的到 “承诺”。。。
我对她“承诺”，承诺什么?
有天她突然对我说了这句话，“如果有个女子比我美，你才能和我分手！”
那时，我没想过她会对我说这样的话。。
你们别想着我会想这世界女人多的很。。
对，女人世界各地都有。。
但感情只有一个。。
那时我想着 “这是不可能会发生，永远不会。。”
我却告诉她 “美? 不可能了。。 你的美再也没人可做到了。。”
今天 二十八号 七月 二零一零年，我们在一起三年一百三十九天， 也就是一千两百三十四天。。。
说真的。。 这么久一来，我真的没看见有哪个女人比她好。。
我想在她以后再也没有人可打动我的心了。。。
我回到家乡不到一年。。 她也回来过三次。。 圣诞节，过年与情人节，还有的是她的生日时。。。
拥有这么好的女朋友。。
各位，你们也应该明白我要说什么了吧? 我所许下的承诺，是值得的。。。
我现在不会确认她在做着什么。。 虽然我很想知道。。
我也很担心她。。 担心有人想追求她?
与我而言，我不想去推迟。。 因为我会怕。。
这么久以来，我虽然表现出一些不相信她得状态。。 在我心里，我还是存在着相信她得心。。
永远得相信与等待。。
我在这里，抽着一支烟与想着希望她会明白我对她得心。。 我也希望她不会放弃。。
我，程添瓏 永远都会在这里等待着妳﹐冯嘉欣。。
This blog i post... is going to share my "different"... most of my friends said that, "cheng/ah loong... you are totally different than before" hahaha... yeah, this have to be start to talk when im eerrr. . . . . . . when im form 5... which is the year 2006. . . yeah.. 2006, thats because im a very quite and like wont mix around with other peoples in my high school time... there are much more worst before my high school... i was much more quite till those teachers also say "he is really really quite and good boy too in the class!" hahahaha... sometimes when i think back of it, i also will laugh on myself... what a good boy... what a good mammy boy...
My life change... my life is change... when im in form 5, starting to mix around with others... that year. . . also my first time dating... is her to change me... she teach me much of life style things.... to be brave, to be talkative, to be stronger. . . . also, she bring me to a road... the only road with no other choices. . . . but still... "ah loong! why you are so emo when talking!" hahaha... ya, they are always say like that... after my SPM, there are non stop of beer every night... its show me more about the lifestyle... say learn more about outside things....
Im quite enjoy about my form 5 life... but the time wont stop at all... now to say the time just like a thunder storm... there is a chinese word said "一眨眼，时间就这样过了"... thats why now all the people will say "forever young"... hahaha... after i went to KL for my diploma, in KL. . . . i meet up some other country peoples... hmm. . . . . here its let me know. . . different country people with different talking style... got me use much of time to mix with them... but still cant totally mix with them...
But now have a thing that still havent change... which is my english... hahahaha... when you guys reading my blog, im sure you guys are laughing at my grammar... but better than i dont know how to speak and write... haha. . . .
Yea, i really like my life now... change quite much... but i will keep changing... many people said that "human is a animal that will keep changing and follow up the society..."
In our life, learning is a happier thing... be happy and appreciate to all what we do in our life, anything... why?
after few years, when you think back. . . . . it will make you smile... even that time its sad or unhappy thing happen... its really will make you smile. . . . . . . im like that... its happy...
01 sept 2009, tuesday, afternoon 01.25pm... Is a rainy day... "wanna go out for lunch?" said my dad... "eerrr~~~ ya, ok..." i replied with blur sound... that time i was jz wake up and im thinking what happen before this... ya, i was drink with my friends at a pub&karaoke... im having bad mood that time... i wanna find some buddy to talk with... "hey, whats wrong?" my friend came to me... that time the pub was close... then i explain all to my friend, and he said "nothing you should worry at first, give time to know more about it... even if you saw the bad thing its shown infront, but you should go and understand whats happen behind of it..." thats true, i should do it that way...
01 sept 2009, tuesday, afternoon 02.15... im having my lunch with my mom and sis, my dad because of in rush so he just drop me and sis to meet up with my mom... after my meal, "later come with me, i show the place that im going to do my plan..." said my mom... what plan she gonna do? "i just dont want you to worry your income, so you have to help me on it..." she said... thats good also, no need to work that hard just for the salary around RM650 per month...
At night... im having some beer with my friends again... “我感动天~~ 感动地~~ 怎么感动不了你~~” thats my message ringtone... the message give me a bad feeling... i replied "maybe because you are too secret..." im continue my drink after i send... "this called surprise..." it replied... "maybe is bad or is good surprise... hahaha..."
"Actually... im always hoping there will be a good surprise to me... cause all the times, whenever, i will always receive and will know the bad thing at first... cant say as bad thing also... it should say those stuff that i dont like and not wishing to heard... all it will come to me at first..." i added... so now i have learn what my friend told me... "nothing you should worry at first... even if you saw the bad thing its shown infront, but you should go and understand whats happen behind of it.."
there... i believe and know will have a good surprise come to me. . . . .
at the up coming days...
ya... the feeling... is there anyone of my family understand me and my feeling? no... totally NO... now, these time 12.40am in genting highland oldtown white coffee... having a conversation with my mom... but, i feel want to cry... hard to breath... she's not understood my singel word... and now, 12.55. . . . . mom's walk away... im alone... still have to hold my tears... i did say i will finish up my education, and i argue with my mom just because of the stupid policy of the college... i don't want to have a talk with father because of he is a law on first person... i know... the parent is always think their kids is still childish mind... why don't my parent try to take a time and put their ear with the mouth shut to listen my words? it's really feels hard to live with... why must they look on the person life now to suggest and confirm the future of the person? im tired for that...
1.15am, my sister back... i will more want to cry, she took up the glass and say
"do you know your mom almost to cry because of you?" . . . . . . . .
WHAT?! why? what for? im not a good son... cry for what? the person who gonna cry should be me...
HA!!! what they know on me?? althought im not good for now, but i always did promise and told myself... nomatter how hard is my future or how easy is it... i WANT to take care of them... there is too much hope from them, especially my father... i know i will disappointed him now but not for the rest of my life...except the god gonna get me hard... please! mother and father, make it wild.. im not only 21 year life... everyone got the future... please accept the happen now and open the eyes to see the future of mine....
Hi there! these was my first blog post... recently i was designing my blogger...
but i think this layout isn't good enough and quite simple... hope to be complete
it soon... that i don't wish to spend much time on design the layout so i'm start
to write some post and it's also the try out...
It's rainy day~! and it's cold as well even i'm using fan... the person who used to
sleep in a air-con room and from the last year on have to sleep with a fan... but
luckily the weather is cold at my apartment area... now the time is 12.54am
MID-NIGHT!?!? i should be go to the bed now... i will be continue the next post
next time... so see you when i'm see you...